My mom thinks I’m crazy.
She also called me a communist, but that’s neither here nor there.
The reason for this is because I told her I’d rather be happy than successful.
No, really; I actually mean this with every single fiber of my being. This doesn’t mean that I won’t strive for “success” (whatever that is). It does, however, mean that I’m going to shoot for my own version of success and I will never sacrifice my own happiness (or sanity) to attain it.
Word to Lester Burnham.
Except I wasn’t smart enough to blackmail those assholes for all the dirty things I know they did behind the scenes. C’est la vie.
The thing about flipping the bird to the status quo is I have now entered rarely charted territory. I’m currently residing in The Land of Uncertainty.
Realistically, we’re always in The Land of Uncertainty. What makes you so sure your image of tomorrow is guaranteed? What makes you so certain of anything? Are there any real guarantees outside of the fact that in this very moment you exist as a living being and one day you won’t? What makes my path any less safe? At least I’m doing what I want.
The real difference is, The Land of Uncertainty is riddled with difficult roads. There are far less paths that have been worn by the feet of predecessors. I have to seek out answers rather than follow a plan laid out by others.
It almost beat me. I nearly gave in to the difficulty. That is until I realized the oft traversed path is just as cruel a mistress.
Get your mind out of the gutter.
Or don’t ;]
I’ve never loved life more than I love it now and I’m nothing more than a failed Application Support Director turned starving part-time writer/part-time Exchange admin. But that “failure” is just someone else’s opinion. I consider myself a success in a lot of ways.
I genuinely cared about my team and mentored them as best I could with honest advice.
I became the youngest director at my company at the time (I think).
I voiced my opinions and stood by my beliefs even if it eventually bit me in the ass.
Word to the Coppertone baby.
Most of all, I escaped the trap of giving my life to a company.
The Land of Uncertainty is harsh and it can be scary. I choose not to look at it that way; I see it as thrilling and challenging. Here, I’m going to be the best me I can be rather than the actor I was in The (Fictitious) Land of Safety.
Trust me, I’m no one special. I’m just a guy who decided to roll the dice. Whatever the outcome, I’ll be happy because I played by my own rules.
Peace out, party people.