We Have More Attachments Than a Zip File………………. NERD JOKE!

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You know, after going through the experience of fasting, I realized something: it’s awesome to know I can give something up. Not forever or anything like that, but I like knowing that I don’t need anything.

Nothing controls me. Or, more accurately, I don’t give control to anything, even if it’s just a false sense of control.

At least that’s the goal.

I’ve been doing pretty well if I do say so myself, but I want to take this a step further. Why? Because I have a crazy addictive personality for things I like. It’s the reason why I grew up overweight and watched television cartoons for hours on end as a kid. It didn’t help that lasagna is effing delicious and the Ninja Turtles kicked ass.

Now as an adult, I’ve adopted a more balanced mentality. I feel like I’ve got it down in a “spiritual” way (I hate using that word sometimes because it can come with a lot of baggage, but I can’t think of a better one to use), but I can still find ways to improve in my everyday life.

So starting in May, I’m going to try giving up one thing a month. I think I’m going to start off with television and movies with the exception of anything that I need for The Gibbler Podcast. After that, who knows, but this is my path to living a more detached life.

There’s a difference between wanting and needing. The line is thin, no doubt about it, but sometimes we create that line in our minds. At least I do. I did with meat at one point. Sure, I never actually made the distinction of whether I needed or wanted it, but my actions told a different tale. I ate meat like I needed it. But having certain attachments can mean willingly feeding into a system where something is negatively impacted. So yeah, this is why I don’t want attachments to rule me.

Before May arrives, I’ll share some of the things I’ve given up permanently and how I managed to do it. Willpower can only go so far sometimes; I like having a strategy. Let’s see how this one goes!

Peace out, party people.

Experiment Complete: What I Learned from My Fast

Photo Credit: Moyan Brenn
Photo Credit: Moyan Brenn

I finished my fast, y’all! I’m not going to lie; it was tough, but rewarding. Want to know what I took out of the experience? No? Too bad because I’m going to let you know anyway.

  1. I feel lighter. Not in a weight type of way, though I suppose a fast will do that also. I mean I feel spiritually lighter. “Spiritual” is a word that can come with some baggage, but the way that I’m using it refers to my sense of being. I feel less stressed (not that I had much) and I have a ton of energy.
  2. I have renewed clarity. I now have a much better sense of what I want to do with my life going forward. Not specifics, mind you, but a general direction. I’ll definitely be writing about this more, but my focus is to make a positive impact on this world as much as possible.
  3. Food tastes MF’ing awesome. Do you know what I first ate after fasting? Grapes. And I kid you not when I say those were the most delicious grapes I’ve ever had. There’s something about deprivation that makes you appreciate the most common things like, I don’t know, the flavor of good, natural food.
  4. I’m officially out of my creative rut. The inspiration is back, baby! I’ve been writing like a madman and I can’t wait until this book is done.
  5. My eating and sleeping patterns have been reset. I’m actually getting 7-8 hours of sleep a night and I’m now eating smaller, but more frequent meals. I think the former was brought about by the meditation as well, but I can’t say for sure.

All in all it was an awesome experience and I’m grateful for the lessons I learned. Fasting isn’t for everyone, but it definitely did a world of good for me. As an aside, I just read this awesome article on IFL Science that talks about the benefits of intermittent fasting (http://www.iflscience.com/health-and-medicine/how-fasting-might-make-our-cells-more-resilient-stress).

Kind of convenient timing, no?

Anyway, I may do this from time to time just to have a reset every now and then. Meditation, veganism, and now fasting? I’m transforming into quite the hippie, aren’t I?

Peace out, party people.

Previously: Taking a Sabbatical with a Fast

Experiment: Taking a Sabbatical with a Fast

Photo Credit: Moyan Brenn
Photo Credit: Moyan Brenn

I’m going to try something new this week: I’m going on a fast.

So before the cavalcade of questions regarding my health and sanity come my way, you should know something about me: I’m at a crossroads. An important one at that. At least for me it is. I’m stuck between either working to pursue my dream as a writer or go back to the corporate world to something less fulfilling.

O woe is me. I should be so lucky to have suck minuscule problems.

Yeah, I am lucky. I don’t know if I could ever forget that. Still, this is a decision I have to make nonetheless. The only thing preventing me from moving in a direction either way is fear. If I work a corporate gig, I fear I won’t be happy. If I continue chasing this dream I fear I may not be able to actually become a success because the playing field is so crowded.

So I’ve been at a stalemate. Creatively, I’ve been in a rut and I’m fully aware I’m just going through the motions. Therefore, I’m going to do what I always do in these situations: I’m going to meditate a bunch. Not contemplative meditation; I’m not going to focus on anything. Additionally, I’m going to fast.

But you already knew that.

So what’s the fast have to do with anything. Well, that fear, as minor as it is, is nothing more than an attachment. A fast for me will be a period of ridding myself of attachments. The only television I’ll be watching is the stuff I need for The Gibbler Podcast. No alcohol. No food. Any time not spent working or with my fiance will be dedicated to reading, writing, opportunity hunting, or meditation. All I need is five days.

I’m a big believer in not hunting for answers to questions. I used to hunt, but over the years I’ve found the right answers come to me as long as I’m open to them. This “cleanse,” if you will, is to help me do just that.

I’ve juiced – not the steroid type – before long meditation sessions before and I always felt the difference. A five day fast shouldn’t be too bad as long as I still get water and take a multivitamin. I’ll let you know how this one goes! Hopefully I don’t get the urge to cheat, heh.

Today Feels Like the Last Day of My Life

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Last night I got the distinct feeling that I was coming upon the last day of my life.

Not that I think I’m going to physically die or anything. Far from it. I just feel that I am going to make a major change from the person I am currently.

Sort of in the same way I feel like a completely different person from who I was in college. I can’t even identify with that version of me. I don’t remember what drove him. It’s all a dream.

Hell, even the jaded version of me that worked in an office everyday feels like a distant memory. It, for all intents and purposes, feels like a previous life.

These past few months have also felt like a life that began with unemployment and ends with the arrival of my girlfriend. I was like a child during the first few weeks of my unemployment. I wanted to do anything and everything. Once I exhausted my savings, the responsibilities of this world settled in and I was once again burdened by the expectations of society. I felt this way for much of my 20’s and early 30’s.

Today feels like my death is imminent.

I couldn’t be more excited.

For me, dying just signifies change. We’ve all died many times. The young man who had a chip on his shoulder and something to prove to the corporate world is dead. That guy taught me a lot.

Who says reincarnation isn’t real?

This post might be a little out there for some people, but just know that I cannot wait to see what new successes and failures I have in my new life  And when I do physically expire, don’t mourn for me. Because I’ll be just as excited to see what comes next.

Death is no more certain than the very next second after the present moment.

Peace out, party people.

My Journey Toward Financial Freedom – Removing Attachments

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Good day, (hopefully) faithful readers! I know some of you are totally onboard with the idea of achieving financial freedom, but this can be so much more than just making money. I’ve seen a ton of sites where people are trying to sell this dream of becoming a self-made millionaire and making trash bags full of money. Blah, blah, blah…

Don’t believe the hype.

No offense.

I don’t know about you, but my reason for wanting financial freedom has zero to do with being rich. I kid you not. I just want to enjoy life. And for me, enjoying life isn’t what I own; it’s more about what I do and experience (and with whom).

So I came to the conclusion that financial freedom can also entail what I’m willing to give up, or in some cases, replace.

  1. Growing My Own Food – I already know I want to adopt a (mostly) vegan lifestyle. Seems to me, it makes sense to grow vegetables and herbs rather than spend money at a grocery store. When I was a kid, my dad had a little garden and it definitely didn’t seem too difficult to maintain.LONG-TERM GOAL: Link up with people I trust who are willing to split a plot of land to grow food. Yup, I’m doing research on this.
  2. Cable – I haven’t had cable since 2005 and I don’t plan on changing that. Besides, I want to see the world firsthand, not through a television screen.
  3. Elimination of Stuff – What is stuff? Why do we have so much of this stuff? I have stuff I don’t use. I don’t even remember all of the stuff I actually own. So why do I need more stuff? I don’t.LONG-TERM GOAL: Is it possible to also share larger purchases with others? Unfortunately, I don’t have any good examples. Actually, maybe this next one is apt…
  4. Invest in a 3D Printer – I honestly believe 3D printing is the (very near) future. All I’d have to do is buy material and get my hands on the appropriate 3D model and I can just print objects that I need/want. This is a long-term goal depending on the printer I have in mind.
  5. Holiday Spending – I’m done with pointless holiday spending. You already know I care about you; you don’t need a gift as confirmation. Feel free to not get me anything either. I promise I’m okay with that.
  6. Cell Phone – Do I really need a plan? I don’t talk or text much. I may as well go prepaid.
  7. Car – I want to live in an area where I don’t need a car. I have zero issues with public transportation. I don’t need to pay for gas or insurance. It’s also better for the environment. +1 Karma.
  8. Make Outings Less About Eating or Drinking – Don’t get me wrong; I love going out to eat. I don’t drink much nowadays, but grabbing a few brews with friends is awesome. Problem is, these are the types of activities in which my friends often engage. There’s no reason for me to follow suit. Not all the time, at least.

So these are my current options. Do you have any ideas? Let me know! I plan on exploring each one of these in-depth to show the best available options.

This life is full of meaningless traps and many of them do nothing more than distract us from actually living. On top of that, how much do you really want to rely on/support corporations? I talk a big game, but what am I doing to not be a part of the system I’m so desperately trying to escape? Not much.

Until now.

Peace out, party people.